uffffff yahhhhhhhh
walked to taksim in the hopes of going to see the new spielberg
film,
munich. i don't know why i thought it was playing, but it
apparently hasn't opened here yet. i spotted the poster for it
2 weeks ago, but i didn't notice it was still
gelecek program (coming soon).
soooo now i will trudge back home through the snow and slush (mostly
slush today-- which taxis that are driving by too fast will spray
up on your pants, coat, shoes.... ahhhh thank you!).
and yes.... mouser, to answer your comment-- it is normal for it
to snow here in istanbul. it doesn't snow very often, maybe one
or two big storms each year? it rains the rest of the time.
ok.... off to buy some food, stop by the
eczane (getting a cold,
need something for it), and then confine myself to my warm, warm
apartment for the rest of the night.
snow, snow, snow
it's snowing so much today.... there must be 3-4 inches of fresh snow
since this morning! passed a little snowman on my way to the internet
cafe that had a carrot for a nose and tomato wedges for eyes.... so cute.
once i'm done here, i will go home and i don't think i will go anywhere
else today. it's too cold, it was difficult to walk the block and a half
to this internet cafe.... i will curl up on the couch with a good book (or perhaps.... STUDY!?!? i could study my turkish for friday's class-- if
it's not cancelled!).
cheers.
sahlep
i would just like to take a moment to express my great love
for sahlep. sahlep is a drink that i discovered the last night
i was in istanbul, sitting next to the bosphorus, at the mado
cafe in ortakoy with kasim. sahlep is made with dried orchid
roots-- mixed with milk, and served piping hot. it's absolutely
delicious.
well, with the snow falling outside and the siberian winds
blowing from the north, it's the perfect time for sahlep again.
had some last night-- curled up on the couch, next to the
radiator-- smiling, feeling happy, warm, content.
snow.....
it's snowing here. mmmmmmm.
messages
i had a dream last night about my old old old boyfriend,
teddy. i was at pixar and checked my voicemail and he had
left me a message, but it wasnt't a message for me, it was
for his new girlfriend, stacey. it started out as a normal
message, then he started crying and saying all these sweet
things to her (me?). i hung up and was confused why he
would have left that message and how it was possible that
i heard it. then i went to meet my friends for lunch in
the pixar cafeteria -- but i realized i was completely
naked. they laughed and told me to go put some pants on
and i moved went back up the stairs and tried to find
some pants......
wtf?
sometimes i dream about teddy but these dreams are always
surprising and i don't like them. they come out of no
where for no good reason.... it's not like i miss him or
anything like that. i don't.
maybe it comes from feeling alone-- emotionally naked,
wishing i could hear those kinds of things again, being
in an uncomfortable place in my life right now. i feel
like everything will sort itself and be OK in the long
run, but right now i feel drained, hungry for life,
hungry for something big to happen. i wish i wasn't
so impatient-- it's a lesson i have to learn to stick
with things and to give time when time is needed. for
myself and for others.... for everything.
i'm really trying though. i feel like a lot of things
are changing for me right now-- maybe not too much on
the surface (well, a return to istanbul is a big
change i suppose!) but things are changing internally.
my thoughts, my opinions-- i am much more challenged
here by these things than in america. it's a good thing.
anyway..... i am on my way to bakirkoy to have lunch
with my friend hande. then i will come back and finish
my turkish homework for my class tomorrow-- ah! hope
it goes well. until next time....
i am not handling or eating any chickens
ok... well.... on CNN-europe the big stories are ariel sharon
and the fact that the bird flu is moving across turkey towards
europe. i'm not afraid of getting the bird flu, as i am not
hanging around any chicken farms, but i'll be avoiding eating
chicken or eggs until this all passes. you never know where
the eggs came from, in particular-- maybe a village? maybe not?
regardless, i will be eating a lot more beef & fish from here
on out.
the past few days have been really interesting. lots of ups
and downs-- but feeling good right now. it's kurban bayram
right now-- a muslim holıday here in turkey that people
celebrate by the sacrificing of a lamb. i haven't seen any
lambs today, just people walking to each other's homes to
pay visits and share a meal together. i wish i had somewhere
to go other than an internet cafe, but that's OK-- maybe next
bayram.
my roommate, selin (who is fabulous, by the way), is here
at the internet cafe with me. we had been bored out of our
minds at home watching bad NBC-e shows (
two and a half men--
why!??!?!?). we thought everything would be closed since
it's bayram, but istiklal caddesi is FULL of people! i was
shocked.
burada
i am in istanbul now.... still feeling a bit jetlagged,
but i am hoping by tomorrow that will pass. feeling....
ok. was feeling great, now feeling mixed-up and a little
down, but trying to remain in positive spirits, after all,
it is 2006 and i want this to be a great year!
